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how do i escape this...?

Posted 12-17-2010 at 01:50 PM by abe619

well as u all know, i broke with my first gf so far...and now i am back to loving that girl i used to love at school after i broke up with my so called "online gf", and this time i won't try to escape the fact that i love her by lying to myself telling myself that i love completely different girl who i never even met in real life...infact i won't even try to escape that fact but what i am trying to is escape this feeling of deadly depression because of the fact that she doesn't love me nor does she know that i love her and i can't tell her for some complicated reasons unless some stuff happen, i can't commit suicide, i can't do drugs and can't drink to escape this nightmare.

so guys this is serious, how do i escape from this self destructive depression?

please don't joke about it, this means alot to me.
because for that girl i am ready to sacrifice anything except my heart which beats for her and her alone.
her smile is such a hope giving one.

also, is hoping for her to love me one day a good thing or is it a foolish hope that is going nowhere?

Thanks in advance guys and merry christmas to ye all (also in advance).

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the depression already makes me masturbate more, the past few days i went to as much as 8 times a day.
and that only makes it worse.
also i've been watching 1000 ways to die lately, and i am trying not to masturbate ever since.

sometimes, i wish i could go through those 1000 ways to die just to escape this feeling or to somehow impress her, if that's what it takes...if only she'd just know how my heart burns with fiery passionate love for her...

and i know i am too dramatic sometimes, but it's because i cannot describe what i am feeling.

EDIT: and thanks guys for showing so much attention.

Posted 12-18-2010 at 12:57 PM by abe619

Updated 12-18-2010 at 01:29 PM by abe619

	: the depression already makes me masturbate more, the past few days i went to as much as 8 times a day. and that only makes it worse. Are you twisted? If I feel sad, that makes me feel less like masturbating.
	Posted 12-18-2010 at 02:23 PM by OddjobAbe

Fuck sake I was just about to masturbate. XD

Abe619, your young, impetuous and you think you know love every time you get a boner over a girl as far as I can tell, the thing is you don't know true love and you won't until you finish school and start to think about settling down and having a family. Get your grades, get a decent job and forget love. Goodness I don't even like talking about the bloody subject, man up, your making me break out into a rash!

Posted 12-18-2010 at 02:25 PM by STM

	What do you know? You've had no more experience than him.
	Posted 12-18-2010 at 02:36 PM by OddjobAbe

	I know, but was like him once, (that sounds horrible) but I realised after a while I was being a burke, so I manned up and no the feelings of love that are inside me are minimal or controlled at least.
	Posted 12-18-2010 at 02:38 PM by STM

	: Fuck sake I was just about to masturbate. XD What are you talking about? Masturbation is against your religion.
	Posted 12-18-2010 at 04:31 PM by Nate

	~~God~~ Nate's got you.
	Posted 12-18-2010 at 09:23 PM by Stupid-Limey

	Yes, yes it is. I never said I was good at my religion, I just do what I can.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 01:40 AM by STM

	So what you're saying is that you can't even blindly follow something correctly. Is that right?
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 01:54 AM by OddjobAbe

	: MA, everytime i try to concentrate as hard as i can on school, her image comes to my mind, which then makes me burst into tears. hahahaha. hire a hooker. one with STD's. you'll be too busy scratching your bollocks to think about her. : and i know i am too dramatic sometimes, but it's because i cannot describe what i am feeling. here's an idea: don't bother trying.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 04:50 AM by MA

	Smell the fucking sunshine. But, no. Find an outlet, you seem to be in a rut. Find something that you truly enjoy to focus on and make good your inevitable personal triumphs. This is not an end, it is a begining.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 08:30 AM by shaman Updated 12-19-2010 at 08:32 AM by shaman

	Just go out and play in the sunshine. Life's too short to give a shit about this.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 09:03 AM by MeechMunchie

	Join a club, rugby or something, vent your feelings (anger not love) on the other team, out run a whiny little winger, dump tackle a prop, sport takes my mind off my problems.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 10:17 AM by STM

	Praying isn't a sport.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 11:05 AM by shaman

	Oh ha ha, rip on the religious kid.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 11:05 AM by STM

	No-one's ripping on the religious kid. They/we are ripping on the hypocritical kid. It's much more fun.
	Posted 12-19-2010 at 12:15 PM by Nate

	Rape her.
	Posted 12-20-2010 at 12:19 PM by Ridg3

	This guy has good ideas.
	Posted 12-20-2010 at 01:04 PM by OANST

	Take her into the woods and rape her.
	Posted 12-21-2010 at 12:40 AM by Phylum

	Even better.
	Posted 12-21-2010 at 02:20 PM by MeechMunchie

	Take her into the woods and give her candy :3
	Posted 12-21-2010 at 04:34 PM by T-nex

	Then rape her. With candy canes.
	Posted 12-21-2010 at 07:06 PM by Mr. Bungle

	Then eat the candy canes for yourself, while she stares hungrily!
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 04:23 AM by T-nex

	Nikki watches the most fucked up porn.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 01:17 PM by Wings of Fire

	Watch porn with her... then splat in her face.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 01:50 PM by Ridg3

	Then Splat in her face?
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 02:27 PM by Wings of Fire

	Get Splat to splat in her face? That's how I read it.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 04:17 PM by STM

	Then WoF in her face.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 04:20 PM by Ridg3

	If she's pretty I'll WoF in her face until sunrise.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 04:41 PM by Wings of Fire

	I've always been turned on by hot wings.
	Posted 12-22-2010 at 05:20 PM by T-nex

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