Well I wasn't really expecting that, but at the same time anyone could have seen it from a mile away.

My parents are getting a divorce. I really don't know how to feel about it. I know that they had never really gotten along, hell they have slept in separate bedrooms for as long as I can remember. But at the same time this really shatters my current world. my mom just told me shes likely to get the house, i dont know how to feel. she doesnt work so i dont know how she will pay for anything,...

I think I have it. I can't help but feel I am wasting my life away if I don't get out right now and start doing stuff. What kind of stuff? I don't even know, my mind just tells me to get out there and do fun stuff. It tells me I am wasting my youth if I do not do something. Every now and then I will have a rational thought about how much more free time I have while remaining youthful, but that goes away in seconds, as I then think about it more.

I think my last blog stems from this....

Would you rather be in debt, but with new opportunities?

Or

Stay in a living situation you despise, but be mostly debt free compared to the other option?

So one of my good friends about 10-15 minutes ago left me a suicide note, said he is ready, and logged off of MSN. I know he has had trouble with it in the past but I talked him through some of the times. He just logged off though, I didnt have a chance to respond. I called his phone several times, they went to voice message. I didn't know what to do, I know if I reported it his life could be hell, but I couldn't let him do it. I called 911, told them everything I knew, it was the most stressful...

So, its been relatively cold here for the past few days. Monday night it snowed and iced and I haven't been in school since. Partially because it hasn't been above freezing since then, and partially because Texas has no idea how to handle ice on the roads it seems. It was fun at first, but now Im just stir crazy. We're supposed to get 3 more inches tonight, but I don't care, I need to get out of the house.

So basically, fucking Texas refuses to raise taxes, so they cut education and medical care.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/0..._n_811039.html

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The McRib was pretty damned disappointing, I didn't even finish the thing.

Also, if /x/ is to be believed, then WW3 starts tomorrow. But /x/ is never to be believed.

So I just looked around my computer for something, and realized stupid fucking me deleted all my God damned writing. A lost a couple of short stories, and a ton of poems. Some of it was down right shitty, but there was some stuff in there that I feel was genuinely well written. I tried some system recovery applications, and none of them can find it. Damnit, this is the most frustrated Ive been in a really fucking long time.

And it was about fucking insurance.

It started out with me walking out to my car in the middle of the fucking night, for no reason, and seeing something written on my car. "With Primacare(do they even have car insurance?), You in sure isn't, you need in sure is" or something stupid like that. It also had "Primacare isn't insurance, its a 12 year contract" Not sure if it said contract, but it said 12 year something. For some reason this was a revelation to me and I just had to spread...

Three weeks into senior year, things are going alright I suppose. My fears of not getting out of the house now that a lot of my friends are off to college have been to rest thankfully. If anything, Ive done more things than in the past. On a more negative note, taking Calc was a huge mistake. Currently making a 53 in the class, gotta get that up so it doesn't ruin my GPA more than it already is. Fun stuff.